☻☻☻☻☻ IM BACK ☻☻☻☻☻

Ok so I have taken a trip down memory lane and how good it used to feel to talk to people and vent my frustration on this blog..... I have updated my stats and I am going to start all over again.

Not going to go searching on other people blogs for the time being, Im going to read my own and take motivation from the way it used to make me feel.

Updating.....

So its been a few years, lots has changed. Firstly I sold my house as we had previously brought our new block of land. We then lived in a caravan for 6 months at in-laws house whilst we were starting to get ready to build.

That was working ok until Chrissy Holidays December 2007 when my son ended up in hospital having to have a blood transfusion and we had heaps tests done to reveal that he has the same blood disease my hubby has. Congenital Spherocytosis. Even though he was tested at birth and we were told he didnt have it.

So after this event and a very sick little boy we travelled from Sale Hospital back home, moved into the house with the inlaws for a week while we found somewhere to rent. Lovely new home so that was great.

So next we managed Bailey's condition and started to build our house, A few months in and me feeling a little off colour and no period for awhile, I go to the chemist to buy a pregnancy test and im sure you know the rest of the story.....lol

So 13 weeks along I wake up one morning and I am laying in a pool of blood, and jelly bits (sorry if I offend) I have never had a miscarriage before and didnt know what to do, I actually thought I had wet myself... when I turned on the light I could see the colour of the wetness. So I wake my hubby who helps me get in the shower while he rings his mum, then the hospital who tells me to take some panadol and go back to sleep. Yeah Right......

By this stage I have a few pads on as im flooding everywhere, and wait til morning to see a doc. Doc tells me to take it easy for a few days hopefully the bleeding subsides otherwise I will have to have a curette. So I ask for an ultrasound to make sure, (even know im already damn sure what has happened) but wanted to confirm prior to telling the kids the dreadful news - they were looking forward to their new baby.

I am so upset and laying in the ultrasound room by myself as Corey couldnt bare to come in with me.... when she tells me I have a healthy 13 week old baby still kicking around.... Im sure you can imagine my surprise.

And so here I now am, I have a happy healthy 3 month old (who was actually a twin - hence all the bleeding), I have moved into my beautiful new house, left my old business I created and moved onto a new successful one, where I can work the hours I want to when I want to, and around the kids in my own home which is what I wanted in the first place.

Obviously I hit the all time high in weight with the 3rd pregnancy, but have given myself a few months to get back to normal and now I REALLY need to do something about it.

I am going away for easter for 10 days, but wanted to get a start prior to that to try and show myself there is no excuse. There are going to be bad tempting days, holidays, weight gains, bad feelings, but no more lies. I have to start this now or I will never do it.

I will try and blog every day if possible, but with 3 kids, my own business and a house to run it will be hard to keep up, but I will do my best.

As I think of things I will update and fill you in, till then, heres to tomorrow and the retraining of my brain... I know it will take time, but Im going start with tiny baby steps that will one day equal giant leaps and bounds.

Heres to the new ME !!!!!!