☻☻☻☻☻ IM BACK ☻☻☻☻☻

Ok so I have taken a trip down memory lane and how good it used to feel to talk to people and vent my frustration on this blog..... I have updated my stats and I am going to start all over again.

Not going to go searching on other people blogs for the time being, Im going to read my own and take motivation from the way it used to make me feel.

Updating.....

So its been a few years, lots has changed. Firstly I sold my house as we had previously brought our new block of land. We then lived in a caravan for 6 months at in-laws house whilst we were starting to get ready to build.

That was working ok until Chrissy Holidays December 2007 when my son ended up in hospital having to have a blood transfusion and we had heaps tests done to reveal that he has the same blood disease my hubby has. Congenital Spherocytosis. Even though he was tested at birth and we were told he didnt have it.

So after this event and a very sick little boy we travelled from Sale Hospital back home, moved into the house with the inlaws for a week while we found somewhere to rent. Lovely new home so that was great.

So next we managed Bailey's condition and started to build our house, A few months in and me feeling a little off colour and no period for awhile, I go to the chemist to buy a pregnancy test and im sure you know the rest of the story.....lol

So 13 weeks along I wake up one morning and I am laying in a pool of blood, and jelly bits (sorry if I offend) I have never had a miscarriage before and didnt know what to do, I actually thought I had wet myself... when I turned on the light I could see the colour of the wetness. So I wake my hubby who helps me get in the shower while he rings his mum, then the hospital who tells me to take some panadol and go back to sleep. Yeah Right......

By this stage I have a few pads on as im flooding everywhere, and wait til morning to see a doc. Doc tells me to take it easy for a few days hopefully the bleeding subsides otherwise I will have to have a curette. So I ask for an ultrasound to make sure, (even know im already damn sure what has happened) but wanted to confirm prior to telling the kids the dreadful news - they were looking forward to their new baby.

I am so upset and laying in the ultrasound room by myself as Corey couldnt bare to come in with me.... when she tells me I have a healthy 13 week old baby still kicking around.... Im sure you can imagine my surprise.

And so here I now am, I have a happy healthy 3 month old (who was actually a twin - hence all the bleeding), I have moved into my beautiful new house, left my old business I created and moved onto a new successful one, where I can work the hours I want to when I want to, and around the kids in my own home which is what I wanted in the first place.

Obviously I hit the all time high in weight with the 3rd pregnancy, but have given myself a few months to get back to normal and now I REALLY need to do something about it.

I am going away for easter for 10 days, but wanted to get a start prior to that to try and show myself there is no excuse. There are going to be bad tempting days, holidays, weight gains, bad feelings, but no more lies. I have to start this now or I will never do it.

I will try and blog every day if possible, but with 3 kids, my own business and a house to run it will be hard to keep up, but I will do my best.

As I think of things I will update and fill you in, till then, heres to tomorrow and the retraining of my brain... I know it will take time, but Im going start with tiny baby steps that will one day equal giant leaps and bounds.

Heres to the new ME !!!!!!

MY GYM WORKOUTS

Well I did a gym weights workout on monday, then water aerobics and a gentle swim. Felt really good afterwards. Wednesday I did a cardio / weights workout, upped my weights to the next level as I felt like I wasn't pushing myself hard enough, with the cardio I did 30 minutes on the treamill. (24 minutes at around 5.5 kph and 7 minutes jogging at 8.5 kph.) Didnt think I had it in me, but have been knackered ever since :-)

Today I did another 10 minutes on treadmill to warm up, weights session, water aerobics, followed by a gentle swim, All in all I am feeling great and really enjoying it too. Weight wise I was happy with the 0.5 kg loss as I had pizza for tea Friday night and a Greek Banquet for tea Saturday night - followed by some social drinking (hehe)

Anyway I am off to Melbourne for the weekend as it was our 7TH Wedding anniversary on Monday, and we are staying in there with no kids this weekend - I am going to enjoy myself - Talk soon, kys.

AND SHE JOINS THE GYM - AGAIN

Okay well I havnt been blogging like I said I would, although I am still on the way to the new slimmer me. I lost a total of 3.4kg in January since I started back at weight watchers, and all I was doing was trying to eat healthy the majority of the time and a few walks each week with the kids while they rode there bikes. TIME TO STEP IT UP A NOTCH..........

Anyway my mother-in law, sister-in-law and I all joined the gym on Saturday. We had our assessment which was fun (not) and are into the swing of things. Hopefully having the extra support to help motivate me will be a good thing. Today I did a cardio/weights workout, water aerobics and then I swam up and back the length of the pool :-) That was a big accomplishment as I am not a very good swimmer, but thought I would give it a go. I totally have no rhythem or co-ordination but at least I am trying.

Anyway life is still very hectic, working the business flat out (trying to grow, grow, grow) more each month until we are where we want to be. That and the kids busy lives, swimming, dancing, parties, house for sale, exercise...... da da da - I wont bore you any more.

Anyway heres to the next week and looking forward to the next weigh in on thursday, and being able to hopefully get out of bed in the morning :-)

P.S. HAPPY 7TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO COREY AND I TODAY.
(+ THE OTHER 9 YEARS TOGETHER BEFORE THAT :-)

LOST 2.7 KG IN FIRST WEIGHT IN FOR 2007

Well I am stoked, after a hard week it has all paid off with a 2.7kilogram loss:-)

Stayed for the meeting today, and one of the weigh ladies commented on how lovel I looked. Always a good thing to receive a nice compliment from anyone.

I have the full support of my husband and family this time around. He is even asking me to make him my special fruit shakes every morning. Today I made low fat hotdogs with onion, cheese and bacon ofr lunch to spoil ourselves. They were scrummy.

Been for a walk with the kids most days this week, as well as rollerskating with Chloe on Monday - we had a ball, and I am taking them both on Wednesday. It will be interesting to see how Bailey goes for the first time. Anyway it is an enjoyable form of exercise and something a little different to the norm.

Anyway, that is the latest on the weight front, Ill try to keep up the positve talk and be back within a few days for the next update, Bye til then.............

SO FAR SO GOOD :-)

Okay, so it has now been 4 full days back on the band wagon, and I must say I am happy with the start so far....apart from a few minor slip ups being-

DAY 1 - Ate a packet of sundried tomato & ricotta cheese appetizers.
DAY 3 - A couple of handfuls of doritos chips at my sisters house.
DAY 4 - McDonalds for lunch. ( lean beef burger, medium chips + diet coke)

Anyway the point being I counted it all into my points and apart from day 1, I am doing okay. I have been eating lots of fruit and Bailey loves my fruit shakes, although Chloe dosnt really have a thing for them. Today I mowed the front and back lawns before it got too hot, and then drank 1.5 litres of water in about 20 minutes - I was knackered. That is a good thing though as I have not done any exercise much lately. Still havnt got into the full on walking routine, but have been taking the kids for a bike ride every day, so as they get more used to it and quicker, so will I. It has got to be better than sitting on the couch at home.

Anyway have been very busy with work this week, getting all the 1/2 yearly clearance done, to make way for all the new stock coming in at the start of February. I am really enjoying it immensely as it keeps me busy. I much prefer selling online and at the shop than doing the party plan (although alot of people have been holding the parties at the shop - which is fabulous) as there is no loading and unloading, and they also reap the benefits as all the stock is available to buy. If your interested in having a look, please click on the link below.

WALS WAREHOUSE

Anyway I am looking forward to the rest of the week and trying to stay on track. I know I will have some minor setbacks along the way, but I really have to do this..... I should start a count down until Leahs wedding on the 1st December, I simply do not want to be a fat bridesmaid AGAIN :-(

I'M BACK - FOR GOOD THIS TIME

Well it has been awhile, but I am finally back.... It has been a very busy and hectic year, I am starting to update my blog and will be adding some new weights & measurements over the next few days.

I have started back at ww today, weighing in at what I basically started at last time. There comes a point in my life where I say to myself "enough is enough." I didnt reach my goal by 30, but had a fabulous time and a great party. The kids and hubby are all well, just need to work on the ME side of things again.

I have really let myself go lately, mind, body and soul, and it is time to get things right. Thanks to Alea and Paulene, who were still trying to find out how I was doing right up until a few weeks ago. I think I honestly forgot all about my blog - maybe it was denial cause I knew I was failing - who knows. Anyway I will get around to saying hi again very soon - I promise.

I know there is no excuse, but I started up my own ebay busineess and we have been flat out - it isnt even the excuse that I had no computer :-( Anyway Xmas has been very hectic and all is going really well. It is great as I can work from home (or the inlaws shed) but still be there for the kids, schooling etc.

Anyway Im going to cook tea - back soon.

WHEN TIMES FLIES

Where have the past 2 weeks gone - I ask you?!?!?!? I have started working full time to help my sister out at work. It isn't permanent but it may be a few weeks work, and may also become a permanent casual arrangement (which would suit me better.) I had my first day yesterday and really enjoyed it a lot. It kept my mind busy and me away from food. In the past 2 weeks I have lost 0.3kg. This past weigh in I stayed the same, although I suppose that is better than putting on.

My house has still not sold. We have dropped the price to see if that makes a difference. Hopefully it will. We have also found our ideal home that we would love to build. Whether we can afford it is another question we will hopefully have to find good answers too.

Probably won't get to the gym much this week with work and pick up / drop off of kids etc, but I will definately be trying to get there, or at least a walk here and there!!!

I just want to say a BIG, HUGE, CONGRATULATIONS to Paulene on her lovely "2006 Christmas Present." (she is pregnant) I am so happy for you, you have been such an inspiration to all of us, especially me when I have just wanted to give up - I have read your blog and it has always got me going again. I am so proud of you for losing the weight and falling pregnant naturally - what an accomplishment. My best wishes for you and your family at this happy time in your lives.....

Anyway hope you are all well and winning the weight battle.
Talk soon, kys

DOING GOOD SO FAR

Well I have started back at the gym and loving it. I have finally booked Bailey into the creche so now there is no excuse. I weighed in on Friday morning on my home scales and reported into Paulenes Easter Challenge. I have decided not to go back to weight watchers for the time being. I know I am still not fully motivated so I feel that it could be a waste of more money. I know exactly what I have to do, it is just a matter of sticking to it. I am really looking forward to weighing in on Friday morning and hopefully seeing a bit of a loss. I know it won't be much as even know I am exercising, I am still not totally happy with my eating again. Small baby steps:)

On the house front - have not sold yet, actually have not had very many people through at all. (bit pissed off about it actually) Paid the deposit on the land so that is all very exciting and we drive out there quite often just to see the progress. It is looking good.

I am not going to change my weight on my blog as I really want to get back there asap and try not to admit I have put on those few extra kilos. Good luck to everyone else out there with there progress - it is hard sometimes to stay motivated, but at least I am back at the gym (its gotta help!)

Talk soon, kysa

TIME TO FESS UP AND GET SOME HELP

Well I have had a lovely time in Mildura and I'm now back to reality. I have checked in on a few blogs and updated myself on everyones preogress - and it makes me depressed. I am so off track at the moment and really don't feel like I have it in me to do this weight loss thing at all.......

I drank way too much (socially) on our break, had cooked brekkys everday AND cheese platters every night before tea. There was 10 of us there and it was very hard to say NO to ANYTHING.....and lets just say I didnt anyway!?!?

SO where to from here? Do I go back to ww and try again? Im a member at the gym and have booked bailey in starting from next week and I am not sure if I will just try this and eating healthy? Walking every morning as well????? Gee that hasn't happened in a long time.

I do know I have had the worst start to the year than anything ever in my life and I need to give myself a break but it is really hard sometimes to try and get over things and not eat emotionally. I have been terrible lately. I have slipped back into the eating when no one else is around as well as WAY TOO MUCH. I am even to the point where I pretty much constantly have heartburn - what am I doing to myself??

I really need some major motivation here guys - I have around 5 months until my birthday and I know I wont be at goal but I could try and lose another 20 kgs or so by then?

I have re joined Paulenes 12 week easter challenge and I am hoping this will be enough to get me going again. I am going to weigh myself every Friday morning and report in. I was very naughty last time and kind of quit - sorry hon I wont do it again as I know its a waste of your time. Anyway heres to me getting my head around all this crap, putting the start of the year behind me, moving on with my head held high and proud and start feeling like that slim chick I was becoming a couple of months back!?!?!?!?!?

Sounds good anyway - I just have to make actions speak louder than words.

A NEW HOUSE AND A NEW BEGINNING

Well hello everyone - I know I have been terribly slack and not been blogging - I have just been so so so busy!!!! Weight wise (not the best) I havnt put on, But I havnt lost either. I have not been to gym for 10 days as I have been very very busy cleaning the house as we have put it on the market. We have been here nearly 7 years and built it back then, made our money and now we are going to do the same again. We have brought a block of land in Tooradin. We are looking at selling here, then building something bigger out there. It is only 12 kilometres away and I can't wait.... I have been out nearly every day looking at house displays - trying to find the house of my dreams. It is all really daunting, but very exciting at the same time.

Anyway I am really sorry I have not been around, and thanks for the emails and messages. I tend to answer the emails more so than the blog entries, but I promise to get around to you all very soon and catch up on all your exciting news, now that I have just told you mine.

Going to Mildura for 10 days over Easter and I so can't wait. It will be totally relaxing and I wont have to make sure my house is spotless every single time I walk out the door. Anyway talk soon, kys

A TOUCHING TRIBUTE

Well the funeral ended up being in Shepparton on Friday afternoon and it was really lovely. They paid a fantastic tribute to Pops life and Dad did a lovely eulogy with my uncle reading a great poem he wrote about pops life. There were many tears - as would be expected and then we went to the burial to watch Pop be laid to rest and at peace with Nanna Betty. He had a lovely bouquet of flowers made into an aeroplane which was very fitting as he had flown model aeroplanes for 40 odd years. I am very proud to also say that Pop had the airfield in Shepparton named after him the week before he died. It is now called the Ian Watts Flying field. Dad said he had a big smile from ear to ear when they took him out to see the big new sign with his name on it. It was in the paper in Shepparton and everything. I have a copy but can't work out how to scan it onto this page. Anyway I will keep trying. I am just glad he had the pleasure of knowing that he is a name sake rather than it happening once he had already gone.

We ended up having a few drinks and went out for tea with all the family after the wake and it was just lovely to spend that quality time together. We had breakfast with dad and headed back to Melbourne on Saturday morning as we had to get back to the kids and ready for a 30th birthday on Saturday evening. We all had a great night at the 30th but as usual I drank way to much and we got home at about 4am.

Chloe had a bad hair day on the last day of school where they donated a gold coin to charity to wear their hair "BAD". Here are a couple of photos. We did purple and glitter hair spray with pipe cleaners. It was a great day and all the kids looked great and enjoyed getting ready for it.

We had a terrible scare on Sunday with a phonecall from Coreys brother to say they had rushed his dad to hospital in the Ambulance with a suspected heart attack. Corey and Darren went and sat by his side as Di (Coreys mum) was at the Lion King and we couldn't get on to her. He stayed in over night and they did heaps of tests but thankfully it turned out to be vertigo - not another heart attack. He came home Monday lunch time so that was a big relief as we really don't need any more sicknesses or deaths at the moment.

I also meant to tell you all that I had my hair cut and coloured last week. I simply forgot to mention it with everything else that has been going on. It is Chocolate brown with blode peek-a-boo foils and I also had it layered and thinned out. I FEEL LIKE A NEW WOMEN!!! Anyway here is a picture of me, Chloe and Bailey at Chloes 5th birthday yesterday. It is really dark. I also had to have my eyebrows tinted as they were blonde and it looked ridiculous.



Anyway thanks to everyone for their support and kind wishes. I am sorry I did not update any sooner but with the funeral plans, 30th Birthday, Coreys dad and organising 2 parties for Chloe's 5th birthday it has been a very hectic week. Talk soon, kys

UP WHERE HE BELONGS................

Well I had the dreaded phone call from dad this morning to say that Pop had passed away quietly in his sleep last night. Dad went in to see him this morning and realised he had passed. I was standing in safeway when I got the phonecall - of all places. Tears streaming down my face just listening to dad. I have been okay so far the rest of the day. Dad is trying to get the funeral held on Friday. Being the long weekend we cant have it on Monday and it is Chloe's 5th birthday on Tuesday so I said that would be out. What a busy few weeks we have coming up. Anyway heres to you old Poppy Ian and I hope you are happy again in the arms of Nanny Betty and may you both be together forever.

I had a roast dinner at a friends house for tea last night and a few too many drinks. I have been a bit naughty again with the pineapple udls but they are just ttttttoooooooo yummy. I went to gym yesterday and did a workout. Didn't manage to get there today, but will try and go tomorrow again. It makes me feel really good even know my muscles are a bit tender afterwards. Must mean it is working though.

Have not weighed in officially at ww for the past 2 weeks but my scales are around the same at home so that must be a good sign that I am maintaining at this stage. I will get back there very soon.

MORE TO LIFE..........

Well we ended up going to Shepparton yesterday for the day. I had still been very undecided on whether to go or not, but decided to in the end. We headed off about 9am, had a lovely spit roast for lunch at dads when we got there which was really yummy. Thanks to everyone for the advice on my pop. I honestly thought I had prepared myself-but I hadn't. I ended going in to see him (without Corey or the kids.) He is bed riden and in a bed room at dads house as he does not want to go to hospital and at this stage (somehow) Dad and Ai are coping looking after him. I won't go into detail, but I know wish I hadnt gone as I dont honestly think he knew whether I was there or not. I also now understand dad when he says he would be surprised if he lasts the week out. I have told my sisters not to go to visit next weekend unless they are totally prepared. I thought I was, but I told them I think they really should just try and remember the happier memories as I am now trying to do. Hopefully the door upstairs will open very soon and he can be with Nanna Betty again.

It sure has made me appreciate my life and not take anything for granted, as who knows what will happen tomorrow - or today for that matter. You just never know when your time is up. $ months ago he was as fit as a fiddle. I just want to enjoy my life and live every day as if it were my last..... no regrets.

I Havent been to the gym as we were away, although did heaps of gardening today and mowed the lawns. I am going in the morning and getting my hair done at lunchtime - yey!!!

Anyway I am going to try and visit everyone tonight and catch up on the past week or so. Hope you are all well, kys

JOINED THE GYM

Well I nearly had a heart attack when I realised I had not updated for around 2 weeks. I have been so very busy with everything at the moment. Bithday Party's, meetings, visitors, sick children and I joined the gym......

I had been looking into joining a couple of different gyms and in the end I joined Pelican Park in Hastings. I have been for my assessment, done a workout the next day and did water aerobics the day after that. I am really enjoying it. I havn't had Bailey in the creche yet - but I'm hoping he enjoys it so I don't have to rely on people to watch him for me to go. I joined up as a platinum member which gives me access to all classes, all aqua, and the gymnasium and the childcare is really affordable too. Anyway I am really happy with this although I am a little stiff and sore from my first couple of sessions. Must be that I havn't used those muscles in many years????

Going to see my pop in Shepparton this Weekend. Dad rang yesterday to say he is getting worse every day and that it was up to me if I did make the effort and go see him again. It is such a hard situation to be put in as I do want to see him and it will most likely be the last time - but I would also like to remember him as the fit and healthy man he was 4 months ago before this terrible disease hit. Anyway we are going to go there on Saturday (Corey for support as well) and I am not sure whether I will let the kids see him. I think I will make my mind up when I get there. Any one have any advice on what I do? Chloe 5 and Bailey 2.5 are probably a little young. They know old poppy Ian is sick, but maybe I should just leave it at that? They havnt seen him for 5 weeks and it is a big difference now. Anyway I suppose I will have to wait and see how I feel and whether Pop wants to see them too.

Have a 30th Birthday next weekend and then a wedding the weekend after so I am going to go and buy something nice to wear next week. I am also having my hair done on Monday and might also try and get my nails done too. It's nice to treat yourself every now and then (I don't do it often) so I will make the most of it.

Weight wise - I did not weigh in last week (sick kids) and feel like I have pretty much stayed the same. I have been having a few drinks here and there and not eating THE BEST. Anyway I will see how I go and let you know.

WHAT A GREAT DAY

Well I had the Hens Day - Winery Bus Tour yesterday. It was a really great day, although I left early without having any breakfast and so I was feeling tipsy before we even got on the bus! We all had a few champagnes while waiting for everyone to arrive, got on the bus, first stop was the Red Hill Estate. Anyway we did heaps of tastings at 4 different Wineries. We had a lovely lunch also - followed by more tastings!?!?!? I had a wonderful day and won a couple of prizes. The first game was where you were not allowed to say the bride and grooms names all day. It was very hard when we are all there in the lead up to the wedding and not being allowed to refer to "Jason" and "Nicole" but instead "bride" and "groom" was very hard. Anyway we all started off with one peg and I was the "WINNER" ending with 6!!!!!!
Nicole had a fun day as did we all. Corey had the kids for the day and picked me up at about 6.30pm when we got off the bus. It was a long day, but I thoroughly enjoyed myself - and I was still able to walk off the bus, and I can't say that about everyone. Namely one of my sisters - Julia!!!! All excited about the wedding now and counting down the days. I am going to buy something nice to wear the week of 18.3.06 and I can't wait.

Got Corey to take a couple of last minute (walking out the door) photos. I always seem to forget but remembered at the last minute so you get the idea on how I am starting to look. Getting there slowly - although I much prefer these pictures than the "BEFORE" ones at the start of my blog. I am really starting to feel good. I have to get back into the exercise this week as I have been very slack of late and I really don't want to start going backwards. Anyway my friend has just given me a baby bike seat so i am going to go get my bike out of the shed, clean it up, attach the baby seat and start to ride with her when we drop the older kids at school. Not sure if I will be able to keep up with her, but can only give it a go - I need a good laugh :) lol

Today we had a birthday that we took Chloe to, then we did a bit of shopping and came home and watched a dvd. It was great and really relaxing with the kids in bed and a bit of mum and dad time :) I love Charlize Theron - I think she is an amazing actress and I loved North Country. I see why it won so many awards. I was also surprised that Corey really enjoyed it too. He must have been in the mood - as he does not usually like soppy movies. Anyway it was great so go see it.

So all is good in this neck of the woods - hope you are all well too and I will be around to visit very soon - kys

15 KILO MILESTONE - I GOT THERE FINALLY!!!!

Well I will admit I have only exercised once and have not tracked all week, drank heaps but kept my eating under control to show a loss of 0.6kg on the scales - which I am very happy with.

I had to weigh in somewhere different again and could not stay for the meeting so I will get my next star for my bookmark next week at my normal meeting.

The past week has still been very stressful and with the added pressure of my Pop ashe really seems to be on his last legs now. Dad has taken him to Shepparton to stay with him and I am not sure he will come back. Dad said today just how much he is deteriating every day. At least we have all had a chance to tell him how much we love him and to say our goodbyes.

I have a hens day winery tour which I am looking forward too. My cousin is geeting married in 4 weeks and its his fiancees hens day tomorrow. I have never been on a winery tour (always wanted to) so I am not sure exactly what to expect. None the less I have organised Corey to pick me up so I willnot be driving home.....

Anyway I will let you all know how it goes and I will also try to take an updated photo now that I have reached the 15 kilo mark. Til then............

MY 12 WEEK CHALLENGE GOALS

MY PROGRESS IN PAULENE'S 12 WEEK CHALLENGE





I WANT TO LOSE AVERAGE OF 1.15KG PER WEEK TO GET ME TO A CHALLENGE GOAL WEIGHT OF 85 KILOGRAMS IN 12 WEEKS - JUST IN TIME FOR EASTER HOLIDAY....

TO DRINK AT LEAST 2 LITRES OF WATER PER DAY

TO EAT MAINLY WHOLE FOODS - FRUIT, VEGIES, GRAINS ETC

TO EXERCISE MINIMUM 30-60 MINUTES EVERY DAY WITHOUT FAIL

LOST 1.5 KG ON POINTS

Okay well I can start by saying that this past week has been the most traumatic time in my life. I am not going to go into detail - as I know some people I know in REAL LIFE have come across this website and I don't want them to know what I am talking about. Anyway lets just say nothing tops it and I have really felt like ending everything. The difference being I have not binged to fix it, I have done the opposite. I have hardly eaten much at all. I am proud of this fact and hopefully it will be the end of all my bingeing in the future.

I ended up losing 1.5kg, but that was with lots of exercise and I feel all the better for it. I must also say that this REALLY BAD THING (RBT) I am talking about will hopefully one day fix itself. I am sorry to keep you all in suspense but I just had to vent some kind of frustration and mark this occasion in my blog life. Anyway lets just say that I am know breathing easy and trying to put it all behind me and looking forward to the future with the HOT NEW ME standing well out in my mind above all else. I am going to lose this weight for me and no one else. I want to feel hot and sexy and fit and glamorous and healthy and confident and I must admit I am already about half way to fully feeling this way. There are a few facts I have come to terms with this week.
I am a good person
I am a strong women - a lot stronger than I ever thought I could be
I am a beautiful person who is slowly getting her confidence back
I am a good listener and adviser
I am a fantastic mother, wife, friend, sister, daughter, aunt, blah blah blah
I will do anything for anyone if they only ask
There is absoloutely nothing wrong with ME, and I need to stop telling myself that I am ugly, fat, and not a nice person as I now KNOW this is not true and I promise to myself from today on that I will never ever think like this any more.

Til next time from the ever happy, always smiling and lovin' herself,,,, kysa

P.S. - HAPPY 6TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND COREY.........

6 YEARS MARRIED AND 15 YEARS TOGETHER AND STILL OH SO YOUNG!?!?!?!?!

A bit of ME time.......

Well I have had a great past 2 days, eating wise. Saturday night I ate pizza and drank too much as usual, But I was to determoned to get on top of things straight away. I have walked for 1 & 1/2 hours on each of the past 2 days. Yesterday was the first big walk i did with Bailey in the new pram. It is a 3 wheel jogger and hopefully one day I will be able to use it for that!!!!! At the moment it is just for walking. He really enjoyed it and so did I - hopefully that means we WILL do it every day.

So every day we are walking to and from school to drop off and pick upp Chloe.(See photo below of her on her first day.) Hey I have to be the proud mum now..... Chloe was on the front of her school newsletter. I will have to try and scan it when I have more time. She was stoked, although I had to explain that it won't happen every time.

Bailey has his first session of take a break by himself today. He has been going with Chloe for the past 2 years. I am sure he will be okay. It is only a 3 hour session of play with other kids while zI get to shop, clean house or whatever. It is my only ME time, and I can't wait. Today I am going to look for a new pair of bathers and hopefully spend another $50 Sussan voucher I got in September for my birthday. I'll fill you in later on how I go.

Also promise to not buy any junk food while at the shops. Not even a coffee. As I was going through my new eating out guide last night and the coffeeI normally get from Gloria Jeans is worth 4 & 1/2 points. Funny that!!!! It also made me realise how many points I used to eat in a day. Sometimes I would have 2 bacon deluxes from Hungry Jacks - now wea re talking 2 days points in one sitting. That definately made me feel better about the choices I now make.

OH MY GOD! HOW DID IT KNOW?

Got this off Tina and thought I would give it a go. I can't believe it got the right age. Is that a compliment or an insult - I wonder.........

You Are 29 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

LOST 0.2KG AFTER BINGE WEEK - yey!!!

Well I had my weigh in yesterday and I lost 0.2kg. I am so happy with that as it means my terrible binge hasnt shown on the scales. Mind you I have worked my butt off for the past week to get that result. Going back over the week I walked most days.
Mon - 6.6 km walk
Tue - 5 km walk
Wed - 3.5 km walk (in the rain)
Thur - 45 minute walk around streets
Fri - Mowed Lawna, Cleaned out Shed, Blower Vac Patio, Shopping.
Sat - 5 km walk
and also every day I have been and will be walking to and from school to get Chloe. We live over the road so it would be silly to drive. Anyway all in all I am really happy with my tracking and exercise this week. It also goes to show how much I could be losing every week to get to goal.

Chloe starts full days at school tomorrow so I will try and walk with Bailey as planned when I drop her off. That way I know I am going to always get 4 days in. Anyway I will be happy to just keep going the same as the past week. Itwill make getting to goal a hell of a lot easier.

STILL ON TRACK

Well I am still on track. Have been going really well - counting my points and watching everything I am putting in my mouth (most of the time:) Have walked heaps this week. Yesterday it rained all day, so in the end I grabbed the umbrella and went for a walk in it, for about 45 minutes (3.5km). It was actually quite pleasant.

I must admit I did have a little slip yesterday. My friend J came around with a bottle of champange so I had 1 1/2 glasses. I also had a liitle pick at hubbies leftover baked potato and chicken. (Slap across the wrists to me!!!) He had had 2 ham and cheese toasted sandwiches at 3pm and then wonders why he is not hungry. Anyway I know that is no excuse but it was only probably 3 points or so. Better than a pizza - I say:)

Chloe had 2nd day at school today and loved it again. it makes it all the more easier to know she is happy to go. There are a couple of kids that cry in another grade. That would be terribly hard.

Anyway I went for a walk today when she was at school. My foot was hurting so I just walked medium pace for abour 45 minutes. Did not measure how far - its gotta be better than nothing at all. So I am weighing in on saturday morning this week. Hopefully next week I will be back to my normal meeting and routine. Time to clean up the house = more bonus points!!!!!

MY BABY IS ALL GROWN UP.....

Well Chloe had her first day of school today - how exciting. Said I wouldn't cry and as I turned my back to walk out and leave her the tears started. Got outside and my mum was crying too. Talk about a pack of blubbering messes. Anyway she had a wonderful day and was really happy and positive when I picked her up so that reassured me a bit.

On the weight front......I have had another good day. Only walked 5 km today (took about an hour)with a friend so it was nice to get out of the house for a while. Had smoothie for breakfast, Heaps fruit for lunch and Lasagne, Salad and piece of garlic bread for tea. Froze the leftovers straight away so I would NOT be tempted to eat them. Isn't that sad:)

All in all feel like I have had a great day and on top of things. Have my meadownick eye appointment tomorrow so that will be exciting (see if I have 20-20 vision after laser eye surgery last April.) Feel like I do and have felt really confident for past 6 months not wearing contact lenses/glasses. I'd recommend it to anyone. Bit painful - well worth it though. Believe me it ain't as bad as giving birth.

Will try and post again tomorrow (busy day)....til then

FEELING GOOD - BACK ON TRACK

Okay since I re-evaluated everything yesterday (see post) and decided I am going to stick with the points for a few weeks and once in control again I will swap back to no count.

Walked with the girls again today and it felt great - except for my foot....I really must get it checked out.

Have been a lot more in control with my eating today. Although had to go and see my pop at the last minute (1 hour drive) and the kids and I had not had lunch. Anyway I pulled into Maccas - Deli Choice tandoori Wrap for me and did not eat any of the kids leftovers - yeah!!!! I ended up having 24 points and had worked out I should be on 23. Plus I walked so I feel I am well within my points for the day.

Chloe starts school tomorrow and she is just sooooooo excited.She has worn her uniform for the past 3 days straight. At least I won't have a problem getting her dressed in the mornings. I am a little nervous and thought I would go for a walk with Bailey once we drop her off. I have just brought the best new jogging 3 wheeler pram. I picked it up on ebay for $70 and it is probably worth like $300. (LUV A BARGAIN!!!) Bailey loves it and has sat inside in it ever since I got it. It had either been raining or way too hot. Anyway that is my goal - to try and walk every day with Bailey. Great Idea - as long as he enjoys it and does not scream the whole way.

So here's to the new motivation I feel like I have regained after a shocking week!?!?

BEEN NAUGHTY - NEED MOTIVATION

Okay well I have been trying to ignore this blog for the past few days - Why? I hear you ask? Because I have been eating crap and I didn't want to have to admit it to anyone... How dumb is that? Isn't that what we are all here for.

Anyway my hubby went away fishing for a week and I thought "Great, I can be slack and eat what I want" NER.....I tells myself now as I am too scared to stand on the scales.

The problems?????

#1 - I didn't weigh in on Thursday as it was a public holiday and so we didn't have to back pay our fee, so see it was the perfect opportunity to slack off a bit......

#2 - Ate SHIT (not literally anyway) ummmmm..... pizza, dimsims, pizza, cheese sandwiches, pizza, lollies, fish and chips and you guessed it more P*#*! anyway the list would be an arms length but you get the picture.

WHY and HOW could I let myself do this over a couple of days????? Like I am not just talking one binge or one days worth, I AM TALKING A COUPLE OF DAYS.

So now I just went out and brought AJ's books. (First 2.) Hear they are a great read and I did kinda bag her out to Paulene, but she has been through all this and I am now going to get there. Is this even making sense? Is anyone still reading or have you all given up on me?

Okay anyway I just went for a walk with the girls - first one in over a week and my friend J is saying how shes really depressed with her weight and stuff so we are trying to motivate each other. I also opened up to them (although not to the extent I do here.) So we are halfway through our walk and I say lets go this way. Anyway we found a new route and it was great. I am hot and sweaty and have just walked for one and a half hours. Then on the last 500 meters by myself I realise Biggest Loser starts tomorrow night. What more motivation do I need? I am going to tape it and try and learn some exercises and tips I can also do from home.

I am still waiting on my bloody walking dvds - wish they would hurry up.

Okay so I have rambled on enough. If anyone out there wants to help check up on me everyday (or as close to as possible) please do so as I need the motivation and inspiration.

I have to start my 30's feeling great and hopefully having put all this behind me. I know I will probably always have these binges but I just feel so bad as I havn't stopped for a few days. Anyway thanks so much for taking the time to read this - if you have:) I feel so much better now that I have gotten it off my chest and tomorrow is a new day and the start of a new week and a new way of life - Hold me to it....

Will post tomorrow - I MAKE THIS PROMISE TO MYSELF NOW

LOST 0.8KG - ANOTHER LOSS - YEY!!!!

Well I weighed in this morning and I lost another 0.8kg. I have walked every day for the past week for 5 - 6.5 kilometres and I am glad it has paid off. Usually walk at night, but with these hot days lately I have been trying to go first thing in the morning.

Not sure if I am going to give points a go this week or stick with the no count. I will see how my day pans out today (I'm really craving fish and chips) so I might get a steamed dimsim and piece of grilled fish for tea with a huge salad to stop the craving. Anyway hope everyone else is doing well, and I'll be back again very soon.

LOST 1.7KG - IST WEEK NO COUNT

Well as I said in previous post I had started to pull my finger out - for the first time in ages and it had paid off with a loss of 1.7kg. I have not lost this much sine my 2.7 kg loss in week 1. So I am starting again (kind of!) week 1 of no count. Hopefully plenty more of where that came from.

Still have not joined the gym - due to finances at the moment, but hopefully by the end of the month. I have just brought = Leslie Sansone - Fat Burning Walk DVD off ebay so I am looking forward to that arriving and getting some extra hints and tips for at home exercise.

Took the kids to the Cranbourne races Meeting today as they had a free kids day. We had a ball. They rode the chair-o-planes, horses, jumping castle, etc. I covered them in sunscreen and as usual - forgot about little ol' me and I am burnt to a crisp. I now have a permanent sunnies mark - cooooooollllll!!!!! NOT !

Anyway relaxed the eating a bit today, but will get back into it tomorrow and keep up with the no points while I am on a role.

Talk soon

HELP ME - WALKING DVD??????

I am sitting here going through everyone's blogs to find where I read about someone buying a power walking dvd on ebay or something and it was great.

Read it somewhere in this virtual land... Can I find it??? OBVIOUSLY NO..... HELP, HELP, HELP.

If the person responsible reads this, can you please reply and let me know?

I am tooooooooo tired now and going to bed. The hunt will have to continue tomorrow.

Nighty night xoxoxo

LASAGNE RECIPE - YUMMY

Have had a few questions about the lasagne recipe so I had added it here. This is a copy of my adjusted version. Corey hates lasagne normally (it was the only thing I could cook when we first moved in together so I flogged it a bit) Anyway he really enjoyed it as it was really moist. I was very surprised.

Just cut and paste link to the web page into your browser, although I did change it slightly - see below.
http://www.weightwatchers.com.au/food/rcp/index.aspx?recipeId=3051

My Version:

Spray Pan
500g lean beef mince
Large onion - Grated
Large Carrot - Grated
Large Zuccini - Grated
Teaspoon Garlic Mince
Teaspoon Pizza Topping (herb)
2 Tins Diced tomatoes
1 x Beef stock Cube disolved in bit water
227g Box Simple Wheat & Gluten free Lasagne sheets - or just use normal ones
Tub ww low fat cottage cheese
1 whole egg, lightly beaten
2/3 cup skim milk, (150ml)

Heat a large frypan over high heat. Spray. Add mince and cook for 2-3 minutes or until brown. Add onion, garlic, carrot, zuccini, tomatoes, stock and herbs. Bring to the boil. Reduce heat to low. Simmer, uncovered, for 20 minutes or until mixture thickens. Taste and season with salt and pepper.

Preheat oven to 190°C.

Place half mince into an oblong baking dish. Arrange half lasagne sheets on top. Beat cottage cheese and egg together in a bowl until smooth. Stir in milk. Spread about one third of this mixture over lasagne. Spoon in remaining mince and top with remaining lasagne shets. Spread with remaining cheese mixture. Bake in oven for 40 minutes, or until golden brown.

Hope you all enjoy - obviously you may vary it as you please.My thoughts though....................................YUM.

FEELING GREAT

Well I walked away from my weight watchers meeting on Thursady and ate shit - as usual. Pizza for tea and Friday night we had a 40th birthday and I also had an attack of the pineapple UDL's!!!!! BLOODY THINGS. Anyway I then decided if I didn't pull my finger out it just wasn't going to happen.

Have been doing no count (or as close to as possible)and am finding that I can satisfy my cravings with a fruit salad instead of cheese sandwiches or cheese and biscuits. Made a beautiful lasagne on Sunday night. It was off the weight watchers website.I used cottage cheese, milk and an egg as the bechamel sauce and it was to die for. I had always looked at this and thought "It couldn't possibly taste as good as the real thing" but for anyone out there that also thinks it, trust me - you have to try it.

So all in all it has been going well this week. I went and checked out a couple of gyms yesterday and have found one I love and the childcare seems excellent, which is what I was mainly looking at. You can put the kids in for longer than a one hour block - if you wish. It would mean that I could also sit down and have a quiet coffee after my session in the cafe if I decided too, as long as I am still on the premises. Will hopefully join in the next week or too (finances) and then there will be no stopping me.

Anyway I went for a walk with the girls again last night - it killed me, although I did walk for the entire hour. I then came home and put ice on my foot and elevated it. I did feel all the better for getting out there walking again. Will try and get an appointment at the doctors early this week.

Out for a bbq at a friends house tonight so I am going to eat lots of fruit and salads for lunch and then just eat sensibly tonight. Weigh in on Thursday and anything over a kilo I will be happy with - it has been a while.

Til then...............................

PLUS 2.8 KG

Well I did the right thing and went back to weight watchers and faced the music. I had put on 2.8kg over the 3 weeks I had not been to meetings. Knew I had put on so I wasn't too upset - it could have been worse. My total weight loss is now at 10.6kg. I have sent my weights to Paulene and am looking forward to participating in the new 12 week challenge.

I have been checking out gyms at the moment. I have done something to my right instep in my foot and finding it really painful to walk now. I have been going every 2nd day but only for 30 minutes and it is only a stroll otherwise I am in agony. Will make an appointment at the myotherapist on Monday to see what I can do about it.

Anyway as Chloe starts school this year I thought it'd be a good opportunity to start gym again. I am joining one of 2 possible choices with creches. I will try and go at least twice a week during the day and then whenever I can on top of that when Corey is home. I feel like I need that little bit of extra help and this is just the right thing.

Anyway hope all is well and that we are all recovering after a hectic new year period,

talk soon
Kys

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Reach high as stars lie hidden in your soul
Dream deep for every dream preceeds the goal.

Hello, Hello and Happy New Year......I have had a lovely break away, apart from the funeral which was on 30.12.05 so I have decided to put everything behind me and start 2006 afresh. More soon.

What have I been up to??? Had a great time up on the Murray at Tocumwal. Very relaxing and the kids thoroughly enjoyed themselves which is always great to see. I so did not want to come home - back to reality. 6 loads of washing later I know I am definately not on holidays anymore.

Funeral for Rusty was really sad and there must have been around 300 people there. Really hot day up in Narrandera - about 45C. I had to walk out half way through and listen to the rest of the service under the shade of an outside tree. Managed to hold it together for Corey as well as myself, although the cowboy hat on the coffin was hard to bare.

I know I have put on a bit of weight in the past few weeks, but excuses no more!!! I am going to weight watchers in the morning to face up to it and move on. I have joined up with a new 12 week challenge to get me started and keep me going to goal. I need to lose approx. 0.8kg per week to get to my 70kg goal by September.

Not at all unrealistic, as long as I stay focused and don't let it slip away. To help me I have made my motto

= 76 in 2006....

this is my realistic goal for 2006. Have told Corey to keep dropping the 76 number when I am about to slip up. WOW it is also the year I was born. It is all leaning toward me getting to goal, isn't it?!?!

MY 2005 WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY

MY OVERALL WEIGHT LOSS FOR 2005




23.06.05 Joined ww on - 109.3kg
30.06.05 - LOST 2.7 kg = 106.6 KG = 2.7 KG TOTAL LOSS
07.07.05 - LOST 0.1 kg = 106.5 KG = 2.8 KG TOTAL LOSS
14.07.05 - LOST 1.5 kg = 105.0 KG = 4.3 KG TOTAL LOSS
21.07.05 - LOST 0.5 kg = 104.5 KG = 4.8 KG TOTAL LOSS
28.07.05 - LOST 1.3 kg = 103.2 KG = 6.1 KG TOTAL LOSS
02.08.05 - LOST 0.8 kg = 102.4 KG = 6.9 KG TOTAL LOSS
11.08.05 - LOST 0.4 kg = 102.0 KG = 7.3 KG TOTAL LOSS
18.08.05 - LOST 1.0 kg = 101.0 KG = 8.3 KG TOTAL LOSS
25.08.05 - LOST 0.8 kg = 100.2 KG = 9.1 KG TOTAL LOSS
01.09.05 - LOST .9 kg = 99.3 KG = 10.0 KG TOTAL LOSS
08.09.05 - LOST .5 kg = 98.8 KG = 10.5 KG TOTAL LOSS
15.09.05 - LOST .3 kg = 99.1 KG = 10.2 KG TOTAL LOSS
22.09.05 - LOST .4 kg = 98.7 KG = 10.6 KG TOTAL LOSS
29.09.05 - PLUS .2 kg = 98.9 KG = 10.4 KG TOTAL LOSS
06.10.05 - LOST .4 kg = 98.5 KG = 10.8 KG TOTAL LOSS
14.10.05 - LOST .3 kg = 98.2 KG = 11.1 KG TOTAL LOSS
21.10.05 - DID NOT WEIGH IN THIS WEEK
27.10.05 - LOST .7 kg = 97.5 KG = 11.8 KG TOTAL LOSS
10.11.05 - LOST .0 kg = 97.5 KG = 11.8 KG TOTAL LOSS
17.11.05 - LOST .6 kg = 96.9 KG = 12.4 KG TOTAL LOSS
24.11.05 - LOST .4 kg = 96.5 KG = 12.8 KG TOTAL LOSS
03.12.05 - PLUS .3 kg = 96.8 KG = 12.5 KG TOTAL LOSS
08.12.05 - LOST .5 kg = 96.3 KG = 13.0 KG TOTAL LOSS
15.12.05 - LOST .4 kg = 95.9 KG = 13.4 KG TOTAL LOSS FOR 2005 CALENDAR YEAR

WHAT A BUMMER

Well I didn't weigh in today. We had some bad news that one of our friends was killed in a car accident this morning - yeah MERRY XMAS Kylie!!!!!

My hubby has known him for years and he was such a lovely guy. A real cowboy, wearing the boots, cowboy hat, jeans and flannel probably every time I ever saw him. He also has a 6 year old son, so that is hard on him l0osing his dad. I think Corey(my hubby) is still in shock, especially after losing another mate a few weeks back.

Anyway I was in a really depressed mood all day yesterday, cried alot and reminisced a bit. I hate it when shit like this happens at the best of times. Anyway I'm now treading carefully and driving even more carefully as there are some real crazy people on the roads at this time of year.

I will weigh in next week sometime before I go camping to Tocumwal later in the week. I am really looking forward to it. After that we are going to stay with my dad and look after my pop at the hoilday house in Loch Sport. I think it is great that all the family are pulling together to enable him to have a few weeks up there as he can't really do much for himself anymore. I should be back about the 10.1.06.

I hope you all have a very safe and happy Xmas, and remember to slow down on our roads as I know I'd rather get there late than not at all.

Kys

WEEK 24 SUCCESS - 0.4 KG

Well I have lost again this week (and after my delicously fattening chinese banquet!!!!!!!!!)

I am very happy with the loss as I did eat everything that was served to me and thoroughly enjoyed it too, but I have tried to exercise alot every day to try and make up for it.

That gives me a total of 13.4 kg lost in 24 weeks. Not the best average, but I'm still here and that's the main point.

I really want to try and have a good week and get as close to that 15 kg goal by chrissy as I can.... Hopefully the new program will help me with that. It all seems very exciting and hopefully it will be just what I need to get me going again.

I have our family christmas lunch on Saturday with my dads side (and pop), but will drink water and drive (good excuse to stay away from the bubbly!!) Loving the fact that my pop is still with us - thankfully - as it has been a hard few months and just makes you appreciate this time of year even more.

Hope all is well and keep up the good works girls, you seem very enthusiastic about the new program so it may be just what we need coming into this week of indulgence......

Til next time

kys

HAIR CUT TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER

Well yesterday I headed out at 8.30 am to finish off all my last minute christmas present shopping. Got to the shops - 20 minutes to find a park. I'd hate to arrived at lunch time it would have taken me an hour!!!

Anyway I got heaps bargains and as I was walking back to the car I saw a new hairdressers that had opened. You don't need an appointment, so I walked in and had all my hair chopped off. It was 3/4 down my back and it is now to my shoulders - and I feel fabulous. My husband had a heart attack as he loved my long blonde hair, although he is now used to it and loves it. One of my friends says it makes me look heaps younger. Chloe (4year old daughter) says I look gorgeous and she is happy as her hair is now longer than mine.



Sometimes it is something simple that makes us feel a lot better about our selves. I am hoping this will help to keep me motivated in the coming weeks until the big day - Christmas.

Still been walking most days around 5-6 kilometres. I had a lovely night out at the restaurant the other night. I must say I did have the banquet (everyone ordered that) I thouroughly enjoyed it, but I am sure I will be walking the fried rice, spring roll, sesame prawn, etc etc off for the next week.

Talk soon

kysa

WEEK 23 SUCCESS - 0.5 KG

Well I thought I may have lost a little bit more but am very happy with that anyway.

Last night I walked for nearly 2 hours but it didn't show up on the scales.

Tonight I have my dinner out to the chinese restaurant with the kinda comittee girls. Really looking forward to letting my hair down a bit and having a great night. Have a look at the phots... That is me ready to go out for dinner, after losing 13 kilos I really am starting to feel a lot better in myself.

Also check out the concrete I am standing on in the photo, this is the new spray paving we had done, it look great too.

Anyway until neat time,

kysa

WEEK 22 + 0.3 KG

Well I had to weigh in on Saturday this week - at a different meeting. I put on 300 grams but had to weigh in with my shoes on (how disappointing.)

I had been quite naughty early in the week and tried to pick my act up in the past few days. Beleive me I could have put on 3.3 kg so I was happy with that.

I have got a new walking track which we have been doing for a few weeks now. I am absouloutely knackered every time I get home. I was thinking it was just beacause I was walking at night after a long day. Anyway I decided to get in the car and measure it. It was 6.2 km long. I nearly had a heart attack.... We have been walking it anywhere from 45 min - 1 hour which I am pretty happy with.

I feel great getting all this exercise again. I really am trying for a good loss this week, ready for my chinese dinner reward on Thursday night - Although I will eat wisely.

Until Thursday

kylie

WEEK 21 SUCCESS - 0.4 KG

Well again it is only a small amount but I am very happy. I have now lost 12.8 kg and I can't wait to get to the 15 kg mark. I will definately get there by xmas - THIS IS MY PROMISE TO mmmeeeeee!!!!!

We had all our spray paving done on the concrete on the weekend and it looks fabulous. Also picked up our new bbq which we have been paying off for months. (not quite $2000) but it is an investment as we will now be cooking most of out food out there. More healthy wok/grill cooking and lots more family quality time over summer.

We are having a bbq tomorrow night to celebrate. I have brought lots of healthy food, and champagne....but I would rather drink this than those bloody udl's as I get too addicted to them and then I want to have a few each night. Listen to me I sound like a drunk!!!

It is actually a family bbq with around 14 kids as well as adults so we are all looking forward to it.

My kids are also noticing me getting slimmer which is a nice feeling to get compliments. I have brought a few new clothes and my 4 year old daughter (going on 34) always manages to put a smile on my face when she compliments me.

Gotta love em'

Heres to next week and lots of hard work after tomorrow night!?!?!?

WEEK 20 SUCCESS - 0.6 KG

Well I'm feeling happy with my progress today. I have been eating really well and trying to exercise where I can. I am slowly plugging away at my weight and I know I will get there in the end. I use the fridge tracker website and the past 6 weeks I have been just above the goal weight line so I know when I get back into the swing of things properly I will succeed.

I Still have 10 months to lose the next 15-20 kilos. This is the reason I gave myself so much time. I am already starting to organise the party - talk about organised!!!! Gotta give me something to take my mind off things when I've had enough. Hope you are all well,
kys

WEEK 19 SUCCESS - SAME WEIGHT

Well I stayed the same this week and I was happy with that as I had been naughty. Have lost a bit of what I had put on though from exercising and eating healthy again. My fridge is full of fruit and vegies again and I have started to get out walking again. I really think this is the old me back again and I can't wait til next week. Til then, kys.

WEEK 18 SUCCESS - 0.7 KG = 10% WEIGHT LOST

Well I had weigh in this morning and I am happy to say I lost 0.7 kg and I reached my 10% goal.

YEEEAAAHHHH!!!

Stayed for the meeting too and it was a good stress reliever to get everything off my chest. Took Bailey with me, but he was pretty good.

All up I have lost 11.8 kg. I have a 30th bday Party coming up on November 12 and my goal is to reach 15kg by then. I KNOW I CAN DO THIS.........

WEEK 17 - DID NOT WEIGH SO I MEASURED MYSELF INSTEAD -- WOW --

Well I didn't make it to weigh in this week, but it is the first time this has happened.

Very hectic week on top of my pop being sick and having operations my kids and I came down with gastro. So it has been a very exhausting week.

I have been for a few walks and moved the treadmill back into the room so I WILL START USING it a bit more hopefully. I know there is no excuse.

Got a bit down because of this so I decided to measure myself, as I had not done it in a while. I know I have lost the weight as my belt is now on its 6th notch - remember I could not even do it up at the start. Anyway all up in 17 weeks I have lost 33cm. I am really happy with this.
I have lost a total of:-
11 cm - Waist
6 cm - Chest
6 cm - Hips
5 cm - upper arm
5 cm - Upper Leg

My new realisation this week is that if I have a bad day it does not mean that I have put the past 11 kg or so back on. As soon as I am naughty I beat myself up and talk to myself terribly again. I AM WORTH MORE THAN THAT!!!!

Anyway heres to tomorrow AGAIN and my need for a slight loss, to help me on my journey.

HOPE ALL IS WELL IN BLOG LAND.

Kysa xox

WEEK 16 SUCCESS - 0.3 KG

Well I am slowly getting there. Lost another 0.3 kg this week, and am happy as long as it keeps coming off slowly. This is the reason I gave myself so long to get to goal.

It has been a hard couple of weeks - the kids driving me nuts, busy with commitments and then finding out my pop has a tumor in his pancreas. He just celebrated his 80th birthday on the weekend, so it is a bit of a hard blow, but I am trying to stay positive, until we know exactly what it is. He is going to have it removed later in the week, so I'll know more then.

Well weigh in tomorrow........ Can't say I KNOW IM GOING TO LOSE THIS WEEK!!! Wish I could though.

Oh well I know I will eventually get over this little hole in the long winding road........TIL NEXT TIME

WEEK 15 SUCCESS - 0.4KG

YEAH I DID IT!!! I have lost 0.4kg which I am really happy with as I have not really been tracking my points this week. Had a few naughty days, but exercised heaps and it obviously made up for it. I am now at my lightest in as long as I remember. I am happy. Still not feeling like I did at the beginning - as I really want to eat naughty food sometimes and I know I can - in moderation. Anyway heres to another successful week and getting closer to the big 15 KG..........

WEEK 14 + 0.2KG

Well what can I say, I have really lost the healthy eating motivation at the moment. Still walking heaps, but drinking those yummy pineapple udl's too often, and with them usually pizza or fish and chips.

This is the second time I have put on so far, and I really do not like the feeling. I know I can do this and I will do it. My goal to lose nearly 40kg in a bit over a year allows me to have my bad weeks and I have to remember that.

Thanks also to all the lovely people who asked about my progress as I usually report into my blog weekly and havnt been doing so.

Anyway I AM BACK AND READY TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT!!!!!

No more feeling sorry for myself as only I CAN CHANGE THE PROBLEM.
Talk soon
Kysa

WEEK 13 SUCCESS - 0.4 KG

Well I did it - I broke the cycle. I must admit though I lost all motivation this week. I went away with the kids and ate really bad, it was also my birthday, so I splurged a bit on the champagne, biscuits and cheeses, but walked heaps, and it obviously helped.

I need to be really good for the next few weeks and get back on track with the weeks to kilo stats. Not that it matters that much as long as I lose the weight. I have less than one year to go to my goal, as I turned 29 on Tuesday, so I know I have the time to do it.

I have read a few more blogs and been on ww site a bit more this week to help me get my motivation back. It was one lovely lady who pointed out how far I had come, and to not give up. This made me start focusing on the 10.2 kg I had already lost and believe me it knocked a bit of sense into me.

Well mum watched the kids today and I went and spent my birthday money and vouchers. I had asked for these so I could buy myself some new clothes. I did a marvellous job - if i may say so. Also bought a new pair of walking shoes. They are called asics gel. I had been using my nikes which cost me over $200 a year ago, but lately they have been making the arch in my feet ache. Anyway they printed my foot and said these would be much better. THEY BETTER BE!!!!

So my goals this coming week are -
To walk every day for 1 hour
To drink 3-4 litres water every day
TRACK TRACK TRACK

Think slim, not fat........................

WEEK 12 + 0.3KG

Well I have finally put on .3kg - after 12 weeks. I kinda new it was going to happen... so I had prepared myself for it. I hadn't exercised or eaten that well, but this is okay as long as I now get back on track. This is proving to be very hard at the moment, being away and with my birthday, but I know I WILL GET THERE IN THE END.

WEEK 11 SUCCESS - 0.5KG

Well I cant believe I have lost again - as I wasn't that good this week with my tracking. I must say though, I did exercise every day. I keep thinking I must be doing really well to have not put on or stayed the same weight yet. I know the day will come, but after my effort so far I will not be disappointed. Had my hair cut and coloured and it looks great......if I may say so.
Anyway talk soon

WEEK 10 = 10 KG BOOKMARK STAR - 0.9 KG

Well I finally got there a week after my initial goal. I have reached my 10 kg goal

AND I am now a 90's gal !!!!! WOO HOO!!!

I am so happy with myself. I have really put in the effort this week and it paid off. I am now aiming for my 15 kg goal, but I will reach 10% of weight lost before that. My reward is a hair cut and colour, to really make me feel like a new person.

DIRTY DANCING

Well I have my next weigh in tomorrow morning and I so want to get to my 10kg goal, as I did'nt get there last week.

I am going with a heap of friends on Saturday night to see Dirty Dancing. We brought the tickets in May and I am SSSOOOOOOOOOOO excited. I would enjoy my night even more with the feeling of having got to goal. Not sure how I will go as it is TTOTM and I can tell from my rings that I am holding a bit of fluid. I have walked 5 times this week and done a lot of housework, cleaning etc to keep me on the move and to help with the bonus points.

Well until tomorrow when my fate will have been decided..............................

WEEK 9 SUCCESS - 0.8 KG

Well I didn't get to my 10kg goal on time as it was today - but I am at 9.1 kg, and will aim for next week now. Feeling really good at the moment, and loving all the compliments. More soon.

MY PANTS ARE FALLING DOWN !!!

Well the reason I started WW was because my belt wouldn't fit me anymore.

OH MY GOD !!! HOW EMBARRASSING !!!

I remember telling my (usually supportive) husband this, and later in the day he came out wearing it - and I was so upset. I thought how could this happen?

I had really let myself go - thats how. I now wear that belt on the fourth hole, and there is plenty more where that came from........

I have recently been recalling MY LIFE PRIOR TO WW and what made me get to the weight I am. I have always blamed it on the pregnancies, which is probably not entirely true, and now is the time to confess.

I think it has a big part to do with the food I CHOSE TO PUT IN MY MOUTH.

LIKE:
-6 pc tasty cheese on toast straight after dinner.
-2 Large pizzas for me and the kids - so I'd have leftovers the next day.
-Buying a pie & sausage roll at the bakery and scoffing them in the car.
-Eating the same size meals as my husband every night for tea
-AND HAVING SECONDS / LEFTOVERS.
YOU CAN USE YOUR IMAGINATION ON THE REST.

Anyway I feel a lot better now that I have confessed my deepest, darkest sins.
Kysa
P.S. My husband even knows how much I weigh now.
I HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE !@?*!

WEEK 8 SUCCESS - 1.0 KG

Well I am really happy with my loss today after what has been a long week.

My son Bailey has had Gastro for the past 6 days, and it hasn't been much fun. I hadnt walked at all up until yesterday and then I walked for 1 hour in the morning and then with a friend in the evening for 1 hour 15min to try and make up for it. It made me feel great - I really needed it.

Also stayed for the ww meeting today (havn't been to actual meeting for 2 weeks) so that was good and gave me lots of useful ideas as usual. I received a food achievement Bravo star, as I felt very proud of myself during the week when I started chewing my sons leftover doghnut and then realised what I was doing and spat it in the bin.

YOU GO GIRL!!! It made me feel fabulous.

WILL HAVE A GOOD WEEK AS I WANT TO TRY AND GET TO MY FIRST 10 KG LOSS BY GOAL DATE OF NEXT THURSDAY.
WON'T BEAT MYSELF UP THOUGH IF I DON'T QUITE GET THERE.
KYS
XOXO

WEEK 7 SUCCESS - 0.4 KG

Well I am happy that I have had another loss, but can't understand why it wasn't more. I am putting it down to the fact that I have been exercising heaps, and that I now have created a little bit more muscle than I used to have.
Everyone keeps telling me that muscle weighs more than fat!!!!

Anyway I still have 2 full weeks to lose another 2.7kg to reach my 10 kg goal. If I keep at it I know I can do it.

My son Bailey has been really sick with Gastro for the past 3 days so I have been grounded on the couch with him on my lap. He whinges every time I walk into another room. Thankfully Corey will be home for the next 3 days to help out a bit and give me a bit of a break - as I am at breaking point. I am proud to say that I havent taken it out on my diet though - which is a good thing.

Anyway heres to that next 2.7 kg coming off!!!!

MY THOUGHTS

Okay well thought I would let you know how I have been going.

I thought not too bad, but that isn't what the scales are saying.

I weigh myself every morning - without fail! I know your not really meant to, but I can't help myself. Yesterday I walked for 1 hour in the morning and then again with Meghan for another hour late in the afternoon. Got on the scales this morning and they're not looking that good.

WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?

Maybe I will have to have a good look at my portion sizes and try and eat a bit more fruit and vegies.

Will knuckle down for the next 2 and a bit days until weigh in on Thursday. I really don't want to ever see a + sign in my ww passport.
Not that I should beat myself up as I am still doing heaps better than before.

I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WEEK 6 SUCCESS - 0.8 KG

Well I weighed in yesterday but I went to the Cranbourne meeting at 5pm with the kids. So after only 5 and a half days I'd lost .8 kg officially. Although I had to weigh in wearing my shoes - which actually weighed .5 kg (and at Sommy we don't wear shoes when we weigh.) So I had actually probably lost 1.3kg in 5/6 days.

Really Happy, except then I had maccas for tea and I pigged out. So now I have to work twice as hard for the rest of the week..............................
and since I am being honest.......................................................
I also ate the rest of the chocolate.

NAUGHTY ME!!!

Will have to walk every day to make up for it as I am sure Corey will be home a bit.

NO MORE EXCUSES.

WEEK 5 = 5 KG BOOKMARK - 1.3 KG

Well I went to weigh in on Thursday thinking I had lost about half a kilo after the binge drinking / eating episode last Saturday night.

To my surprise I lost 1.3 kg which got me my 1st 5 kg bookmark - with a total loss of 6.1 kg!

I FEEL FABULOUS!!!

I have really been sticking to my points although still allowing myself a few treats. Told everyone at the meeting how happy I was - although several ladies saw it on my face, as I couldn't get rid of the smile when I walked in the meeting room.

So now I am looking at my next goal. 3.9 kg to go until I have lost 10 kg.

If I stick at it - it isn't far fetched to reach my 15 kg goal by 20.9.05.

U CAN DO IT!

WEEK 4 SUCCESS - 0.5KG

Well I ended up losing .5 kg last week so that is a total of 4.8 kg.

Had a big night on Saturday - Drank heaps, Ate heaps, Hangover on Sunday and ate really bad again.

Really would like to lose .2 kg this week to get me to 5 kg goal. So I've really pulled my finger out yesterday and today to try and do that.

Emailed a lady called Meghan from WW website who lives in Pearcedale. Hopefully she can be another walking buddy.

Good Luck for weigh in on Thursday Kylie. YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!

WEEK 3 SUCCESS - 1.5 KG

Okay well don't know what my problem is, but have been a bit slack so far this week. Only just been for my first walk, although I did walk 1.5 hours to make up for it.

Have received my first compliments. Yesterday Jenny said Mick had told her "How much weight has Kylie lost!?" then this morning Jane said "You are looking really good." That made me think. - "Hey Kylie you really are being slack. This week you lost 1.5kg and if you keep at it you can do that every week."

BACK ON TRACK TODAY. Need to stick with it.

Hopefully Corey will be home tomorrow so I can go for a walk.

MY AIM? - No + readings on the scales.

WEEK 2 WEIGH IN - 0.1 KG

Well I only ended up losing .1 kg last week, but I am sure my period had a lot to do with that. I have been eating quite well and trying to exercise everday. I even got Corey to put the treadmill in the garage so that I use it more.

Still havn't felt 100% in control, but hopefully I will soon.

Will walk tomorrow while the kids are at take a break.

I am very proud of myself though for not beating myself up when I am naughty.

I WILL do this slowly and then it will stick.

Come on new clothes and hair! 12.2 kg left and counting.

WALKING AND OUT FOR LUNCH AGAIN

Tomorrow is my week 2 weigh in. I havn't been as good this week. I have had my period and have felt a bit crap, but I am still hoping to have had a loss.

Went to Somy Pub for lunch today and ate quite well although I did have 2 glasses of champagne. This morning I walked for 45 minutes and later today again I walked for 1 hour with Carolyn. Feel Great. Had a light dinner as I am not that hungry.

Will start a new day tomorrow and will keep the walking up, but also try to eat a lot more fruit and vegies. This is my problem I think.

WEEK 1 WEIGH IN A SUCCESS - 2.7 KG

Yesterday was my week one weigh in and I am rapt. I lost 2.7kg to get me going on my WW journey. I also received a star at weigh in and a bravo star for my passport to success book.

I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!

One of the ladies reached her goal and all up has lost 44kg. That could be me in 12 months time.

Going to Shepparton tomorrow and I've promised myself I will be good.

JUST EAT IN MODERATION!!!!!

1ST MEAL EATEN OUT!

Yesterday we went out for lunch to "The Dome." I went there wanting to be good and I was pretty much. I ordered a chicken Tandoori wrap with salad and chips. I also drank water the whole day except for a lemon squash which someone brought me and I also had a skinny milk cappucino. I feel like I did a great job. I was so full when we got home at 5pm that I didn't even have any dinner - "just for the sake of saying I'd eaten tea." I have never done that before. Need to be good tonight at Disney on Ice as I have my week 1 weigh in in the morning.

UPS AND DOWNS

Okay so I've had a bad few days, but I am back on track today.

Put it down to Corey being away and me being lazy because he's not here.

On Saturday I ate a block of 85 gram fruit and nut chocolate for sweets. Although I did walk during the day. Yesterday I was just silly.

Got on ww website last night and have started a few threads for support.
Out for lunch tomorrow so I will try and behave.

I CAN DO THIS.

I WILL DO THIS.

HOW I WANNA LOOK AGAIN

This is Chloe and I in 2002 while I was on WW






This is me, Ruth and Jacqui at Ruths 30th in 2002
after losing weight on WW

MY GOALS

STARTING WEIGHT - 109.3 KG
GOAL WEIGHT - 70 KG

ULTIMATE GOAL WEIGHT = 70KG BY 30TH BIRTHDAY.
REWARD = HOLIDAY / BELCHER BRACELET

TO LOSE FIRST 5 KG IN 3 WEEKS
ACHIEVED 6.1 KG IN 5 WEEKS

TO WEIGH UNDER 100KG BY WEEK 5

TO LOSE 10 KG BY END AUGUST = $50-$100 ON OUTFIT

TO LOSE 15KG BY MY 29TH BDAY - THATS 12 WEEKS TIME
REWARD =HAIRCUT AND COLOUR OF MY CHOICE

TO LOSE 20KG BY XMAS 2005 = $200 ON CLOTHES
- BY THEN I'LL NEED IT

TO WALK EVERY DAY OR AT LEAST EVERY SECOND DAY FOR AT LEAST 1 HOUR

GOOD DAY

Wasn't going to write everyday, but have had a good day and thought I would record it. Went for a 1 hour walk today and then a half hour stroll with Corey and the kids. It was very enjoyable although I am a little bit stiff, but if I keep at it, it'll all start to get easier.

Keep thinking about the ladies story yesterday at the ww meeting. She was 109kg and is already down to 90kg. This is going to be my mini goal for Xmas.

If I keep at it like I did today I know I can do it.

Also joined ww site today. If I feel like eating I will get on there and vent my frustrations.

THINK SLIM AND YOU WILL BE SLIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KYS
XOXO

ME IN APRIL 2005 PRIOR TO WEIGHT WATCHERS

SO MUCH FOR THE SKINNY BRIDESMAID!!!!!!!!!!!

JOINED WW

Today I finally joined WW again.

The people are all really friendly and I was glad Jodie was there as I felt more comfortable with someone I know.

Did some shopping afterwards. Brought fruit, ww meals, snacks, etc.

I know I can do this and I WILL DO IT THIS TIME AROUND.

Going to try and talk positive and stop from putting myself down all the time.
My goal is to eat better this week and try to exercise every secong day for about
45-60minutes.

I WILL LOOK GORGEOUS SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS ME IN JUNE 2003 AFTER GIVING BIRTH TO MY SON.
THIS IS A BEFORE WEIGHT WATCHERS PHOTO!